When God gave me a vision I was both relieved and confused. I was relieved because the vision changed my perspective on life. After several years of trying and failing to be a journalist the vision gave me hope again. My failures and defeats were not going to be the end of my story.
I was confused because what God showed me in the vision was not the original plan I had for my life. Nevertheless, I took that vision and ran with it. Since God gave me the vision I thought it was up to me to achieve the rest of it on my own. So I put everything together for my business and took it upon myself to figure every detail and plan to make this entrepreneurship work on my own.
However, when it was all said and done I ended up with nothing. Four years of pushing against the grain and nothing happened. I had no clients. The ones that I did have ended up not being a great fit for my business. I lost money and my business account closed. I was deep in credit card debt. I lost friends and the social life that came with it. I had no mentors, no partnerships, and no resources. I was alone and no one understood what I was doing with my life.
I needed answers from God. I needed an explanation as to why he showed me my future but yet I was nowhere closer than when I began. So I aggressively searched for God in the woods and quiet parks. I searched for him in other christians. I searched for him in my meditation and my inspirational music. Anywhere that I had previously encountered God I went back there to find him. But, there was noting but silence.
I knew very little about God. Before God gave me that vision I thought I knew how he worked. I thought that God always showed up in the same places, that he would speak to me in the same way, and if God showed me something in my future it meant that it was going to happen right away. I put God in box. I did not know that the vision he showed me was a small piece of a very large picture.
I did not know that I was going to have to go into battle for my dreams. I needed to grow into that person God showed me in my vision. I had to be trained first in patience, persistence, and perseverance. I needed to make mistakes and learn from them. I needed to sharpen my spiritual discernment. I needed to fight through and survive rejection. I needed to wait on God and know that when he says wait I had to wait and when he said go I had to move. If I had been successful overnight then I would have lost it all just as fast. So with nothing in my sights, I took the Lord’s hand and we traveled through the wilderness alone together. Trusting in him for EVERYTHING was my answer.
God is bigger than anything that we could ever plan for ourselves. God is bigger than our human ways and thoughts. God does not fit into our boxes. He is so much bigger than that. So let go of all that you thought you knew. Let go of what you thought should have happened or what should be happening right now. Let go of the places or things where you last encountered God because he has moved on from that place. He’s guiding you to higher places so that you can continue to grow. All you have to do is take the Lord’s hand and trust him. He will take you beyond your wildest dreams.