Sometimes you have to sit in your darkness. There will be times where you must face your demons and fight through your battles. Sometimes you have to hit rock bottom in order to rise up. God leads you into those dark places so that you can deal with your demons, to discover who you really are and who your are not, and to build up your faith to become totally dependent on him. If he doesn’t leave us in those dark places then we would all continue walking down a path of untapped potential and self destructiveness.
In 2018, I sat in my darkness. I had been running and running from the things that were chasing me. I had been running away from my potential. I had been running away from my demons. I was too tired to fight depression. I just wanted God to just wipe away all of my problems. I thought maybe if he would just remove them that they would be gone for good. Of course that was not the case because wherever you run your troubles will follow. But when I became tired of running I finally sat down in my darkness and faced my demons.
In my dark places I was able to grow. I was able to let go of old ideals about myself. I was able to accept the good and bad about myself. I was able to reflect on how far I’ve come. I was able to see how far God has brought me. I was able to hear God more clearly and my spirit began to align with his. I became unbothered by negative people. I became stronger and more confident. And most importantly, whenever I was weary from fighting depression and hopelessness God picked me up and set me right back onto his righteous path. He never let me go.
You are not alone in this. If you’re in a dark place where you’ve hit rock bottom with no other options left, sit there with God. Go through the pressing process of your darkness until you come out a strong, shining diamond ready to do God’s will and live in your God given purpose.